Why Covid scares me so much

The other day, I was speaking with my massage therapist regarding how scared I was of Covid. She found this so amazing. As many of you know, I am not a germaphobe or a hypochondriac.  I am one of those people that is always touching public doorknobs and light switches to help keep my immune system active. I actually sort of shun hand sanitizer, as I fear it is helping to create a super flu. I am always out and about during flu season; never worrying about catching it. My germaphobe friends find me insane.  

To my defense, I am generally healthy. Even if I catch a cold, normally within a day or two I am better. I get the occasional sinus infection, but even that only lasts a day and is easily handled with a sinus pill.  I take no major medications. I workout regularly and I drink plenty of water. I am not a health nut, but I am careful with my health.

I also have great genes. My family tree is healthy and long-living. Short of the proverbial beer truck hitting me, I really feel like living to 100 is something I can do. 

Given all of this, I never fear dying from the common cold and I really never think about catching the flu. Even if I did, I believe I would be down a day or two and then life would return to normal. 

Enter Covid.

I have no idea how to deal with this. I cannot grasp a virus that can hospitalize me or kill me. My genes will not help me. My overall good health makes no difference. If I get it and live, I could suffer unknown side affects. 

I am not mentally prepared to clean everything, all the time. I am not in the habit of washing my hands 30+ times a day and not touching things out in public. I just don't know how to deal with this.

Thus, I am basically hiding. I know my friends and family think I am a bit over the top. They know that most people my age and health do survive it if they get it. I think they feel I am a bit crazy.

I am working on being cautious without being totally hysteric about Covid, but I am struggling. 

Fortunately, I am surrounded by positive thoughts and people. My closest friends and family are allowing me to deal with this in my own way.  I am blessed. Hopefully I will continue to be lucky and survive this pandemic.

Wishing you all - very good health!